day 4

i am on day 4 of my diet and yesterday i ate a protein bar and drank lots of water. i had french bread pizzas but an hour later i had to purge, i felt disgusting after i ate that. i was supposed to get up and run a mile and do crunches but i didnt go to sleep until 4am so a mile jog at 7am was impossible. today im working on not eating anything. im gonna have a fruit smoothie (if i go to work) other than that im gonna drink water and do some crunches or something. i need to lose these 70 lbs by summer and i cant do that without self control. i feel so gross right now. i weigh 170 lbs and i look like a cow. i need help losing this weight. food is not my friend :) self control. thinspiration. starvation. diet. exercise. think thin.

first few days

i am jenna. i am 18 years old and i have recently become ana/mia. i used to be both back in middle school but my parents got in the way. now im older and i have more control over my life and i have self control when it comes to food. today all i ate was a protein bar and ive had one glass of apple juice and lots of water. every morning i want to wake up around 7am and jog around my neighborhood then come home and do 100 sit ups or more. i need to make a change in my life and its a new year and a new me. my current weight is 170 lbs. my first goal weight is 120 lbs by april 9th. my second goal weight is 100 lbs by june 1st. i am going to go out and by myself a scale and weigh in every friday. if theres anyone out there that needs an ana buddy or a diet buddy let me know, ill be happy to help. i know i need the help as well :)