day 4

i am on day 4 of my diet and yesterday i ate a protein bar and drank lots of water. i had french bread pizzas but an hour later i had to purge, i felt disgusting after i ate that. i was supposed to get up and run a mile and do crunches but i didnt go to sleep until 4am so a mile jog at 7am was impossible. today im working on not eating anything. im gonna have a fruit smoothie (if i go to work) other than that im gonna drink water and do some crunches or something. i need to lose these 70 lbs by summer and i cant do that without self control. i feel so gross right now. i weigh 170 lbs and i look like a cow. i need help losing this weight. food is not my friend :) self control. thinspiration. starvation. diet. exercise. think thin.